Jaque Fresco's Utopia on earth.. "the venus project"

i used to think that the concept of utopia is way beyond our reach in the physical form..
that every one holds some pieces of it within..
that it's something moral than a tangible fact..
but after this.. i guess that the utopia can really be made.

i have seen lately William Gazeki’s documentary "Future by Design"

and it's truley Amazing..
Jaque Fresco show us the way to build a new civilization that is not "perfect" but better..
some say that there isn't a thing such as perfection..
well, i think Jaque Fresco's point of view is pretty amazing..
we donot want to be perfect
but we know that we can do much better..
that we can make both technology and environment coexist without distroying one another..
i think every body should see the William Gazeki’s documentary "Future by Design"

for those who haven't you can have a quick glance at my very personal "utopia on earth" by Jaque Fresco..


http://consultaglobal.wordpress.com/2007/06/14/

PHASES

DENIAL

the truth is i don't know what is wrong with me lately..
I'm being cheerful more than ever..
I'm always smiling.. laughing..trying to have fun and to live my life to the extreme.
something i'm not used to do usually..
my best friend thinks it's because of the shock..
what?!
shock!!
do i look shocked to anyone?!!
i'm just feeling a little happy that's all.
i'm feeling freedom crossing through me.. just pass me by.
is it so wrong for me to be happy..
i mean..
i can be happy.. without being shocked

ANGER


what the FUCK !!
what does he mean by that?
did he just dump ME !!
or was he just playing STUPID.. and faking GOOD..
"i don't want u to wait 4 me" like he doesn't really want me to suffer..
YEAH right, i belive u ... NOT !!
what did he say again
"i didn't want to hurt u.. by teeling u i don't have feelings 4 u"
WELL, you should of thought about this EARLIER when u FUCKING made me believe u were FUCKIN' IN LOVE with me..
and now look who is the one who got HURT
of course the STUPID girl who is HEAD OVER HEELS 4 someone who doesn't deserve a SHIT !
you know what?
i don't CARE !!
i don't EVEN CARE about someone so FUCKIN' LOW..
you are just PATHETIC..
i pity u cause u wont get to feel the truth about LOVE
u know why..
cause your a fuckin' JURK !
that's why...

BARGAINING

well..
i guess i was wrong !
not about you bieng a JURK.. cause belive me i still belive u will never change..
some people never change ,you know.
but i guess i just can't understand what u r
for all what i've had seen from u was just too much for me to take.
i just felt for the first time plain HATRED !!
and now..
looking from where i'm standing right now..
i can tell u i would do anything just to have u back..
and i don't know why..
it looks like life isn't complete that way..
when u r not around..
there is always something missing.
you where everything that i'm not.
and now look where u took me..
u took me to BARGAINING.
i just would do anything to take all those years back..
to be just your friend and nothing more..
to be there for you
and you will be there for me too.
i just can't comprehend right now why can't we take all those years like nothing had happend
as of i never loved you..
but you know..
i just wish..
and not all my wishes come true.


ACCEPTANCE

well, what do you know !!
we all have to reach this point some time.
i think I've accepted the fact that you wont be there for me after all!
i guess I'm shocked !
between you and me, i think i'm OVER YOU !
Yeah, i know.. it feels GREAT!
i mean it was just like a minute ago when u told me u don't love me..
and .. i just don't care.
I'm getting along with my life.
with the fact that i can find somebody else.
infact.. i don't even think about getting in another relationship anytime soon.
i'm more about my courier now.
about my future.. it's all what i'm thinking about now..
i actually feel better.
not that i have anything against your gendre or something ..
i'm still straight if that's what u mean, But i dont think that i'm the type of girl who wants to get married.
i mean all these cheerful occasions and the cheering life.. they are just not me.
i more of a MODERN WOMEN now.
all what's importent for me is what i'll make of my self.
i think i've been changed to someone else, huh ?!
but the thing is..
i'm not angry anymore..
i'm not weak any more..
i think i've become a more realistick person..
and i'm happy of what i've become..
a much stronger women.
but the thing is..
what has been happening very often lately that..
Guys ask me out and i often say yes but it turns to be that they think of me as a potential lover but i don't get the real of it until it's too late and they're already head over heels for me.
so you see. the thing that have been bothering me too much is that
i've become a cold-blooded HEARTBREKER !!

...

I realized something EXTREMLY

EXOTIC today..

i still miss u..

DAMN IT!!!

to be GREAT

Be not afraid of GREATNESS..

some are born great..

some achieve greatness..

and some have greatness all upon them..

quote

Time passes - even when it seems

impossible. even when each tick of the

second aches like the pulse of blood behind

a bruise. it passes unevenly, in strange

lunches and dragging lulls. but pass it does -even for me-

i can't do this

you know something..
i wish i could tell you i HATE YOU for once in my life..
may be if i expressed my anger i wouldn't feel so tortured.. so missed up.
you know..
yesterday when you told me you didn't love me..
i wanted to scream
to hit you with something
i wanted to beat the hell out of you untill i lose all my power and die..
i wanted to die in your arms beating you.
untill now my tears are killing me.. i can't keep them inside
somehow they manged getting out of me..
it's as if my own tears can't stand me anymore.
i don't wanna be pathetic..
i don't wanna be the wounded one..
always lying down on the floor in despair..
why did i ever love you?
are you some sort of punishment for all the things i do wrong..
i remember i was asking you to never give me your phone number..
i needed to be cruel with my self
even when my soul was shouting
no please
just stay
i just had to move on you know
it's the 100 th time you broke my heart..
and i just.. can't live any more..
yesterday i couldn't breath.
i asked god for a car to run me over
i really wanna get run over..
i really need to die.
i need anything else besides the fact that you don't love me..
why was i cursed with this heart
i need to know
why?
why can't i just tell you that i hate you so much
that i resent you so much
i resent all the lies i had to go through in our relation ship
and in the same time
there is another person inside of you that i hold dear to my heart
it's the friend in you whom i've never found
i never found someone who could understand me that much..
may be that someone is the only person that spared your life
without this person i would've killed you
i just can't take it any more
how can i move on when the only person i can rest my head on his sholder is someone i'm not allowed to do that with.
i no longer want your lover
i hate the lover inside of you..
he represents all what i've ever hated in men.
i just can feel the danger bounces all over around him.
but still..
that other person i cherish so much that it makes me look like a fool when i don't get comfortable talking about what upset me so much with someone else beside you..
for that and for that only..
i can't live without you..
i'll b okay
i'm always okay
that's the only thing that i could manage lying on my self with..
even if in this moment all what i wanna do is scream
i'm not fucken k
how could i live with that
that in the same time i need the friend in you so much i resent that other person who crushed my heart ruthlessly one time after another.
should i talk to you you as a friend
talk to you about some guy i have a crush on..
we did that once
you said you cant be that person
what the hell was that crap
why can't you b that
we both know you never loved me
i mean i'm nothing compared to your little miss perfection.
then why on earth wouldn't you want to be my friend in what i need
what about my fucken needs!!

i don't know what i'm suppsed to do right now
but i know that i need someone inside of you
so, will you be here beside me?
cauze i can't do this alone you know

i kind of..

you know..
it's kind of hard for me to go away without taking some pieces of you with me..
i've tried to fill your place but it didn't work.
no one ever fills your place.
it's too big to be filled. there's always some space that is empty.
and the emptiness always takes the bigger half..
you know what?!..
i think i kind of..
miss you.
i don't miss just the lover inside of you..
i kind of miss the person..
the feelings..
the caring.
it's not that i'm not surrounded by much of care. ihave plenty of that.but it's just that with you..it was always different.
you were always -for me- something more beyond of that..
for me you were all that i have of love, friendship, understanding and above all of this.. you were my faith in god.
and untill this moment i can see god's meracles in you.
now you are my raw model.
i don't mind being alone , you know.
i just don't like to feel lonely.
and without you.. i'm always alone. even if the room's crowded with dozens of people i know.. they just fill a little gap from between two bigger spaces in my heart.."your love, and your friendship"
so do it what ever u want..
go away..
get as farther as you want.
just don't take all of me with you..
leave me something that i can live with.
leave me some of your soul.
cause i miss u like hell.
and it sucks.

what i hate about you..

i hate that i miss u so much..
i hate that i dream of u at night
i hate that when i try to catch ur shade in the dark it just fades away
like u were just from the begening..nothing but a shade.
i hate how much i love
i hate that u are not around
and above all of this i hate that i still can see u
when i close my eyes
even when my soul is no longer around

love remains

How can anyone know what love is all about?!!..
How can anyone tell the difference between passion and pure selfish desire?!
If it is all that is there, then why doesn’t I feel secure?!..
How much should I give till I reach the other side?!..
Do I still love you?..
Well, I don’t know..
For all that is.. I tjink perhaps no.
I guess..you taught me how forget all about love..
I’m forever in your dept.
For that matter..
I’ve learned to move on..
To know that you’re not my only reason to live..
That I can breath without taking a breath for your heart before I take one for mine..
To know that without you I could also survive..
I loved you once..
Yes my dear sir, for all my heart..
I would riiped my heart from my own chest to give it to you if you wanted.. And forgot all about the pain.
Or have I done that already?!!..
For I thought you cared for me as much as I did care on your behalf..
I thought.. and how stupid I was when I thought that..
You would have done the same for me..
You would rip your heart out to give to me..
And forgot that you were smart to sacrifice your self for a stupid girl like me.
But for now, till my days end through..
I will always remember the way I used to love you.
But still from now on..
But still from now on..
You’ll have to forgive me as I move on.
I gave you my life once..but you never fullfilled.
And as I watched you break me even more.. you never felt sorry for the heart of mine that you torn.
I think it’s time for me to let you go..
As far as my concer you should probably know..
That I’ve had enough of the pain.. the torments thought that would keep me awake in the cold winter nights. Without the worwth that you promised me before.
That I’m completely over you..
For me now.. you’re just a shade from beyond any concerns..
You’re just a few remains of my past which I’m more than glade now to say..
I will no longer keep a memory of you..
Neither will keep any of your love remains.

unbearable

I think I’m driving my self insane. I donot know what I want..i donot know whether I care or not!!
Sometimes I think I’m PERFECT.. worse than that, I even feel perfection.. I think “I’m COMPLETE.. and I don’t need anything to complete me more”.
This feeling it self –for me- is just unbearable.
I cannot bear the lie I’ve lied on my self to make me move on.
I just cannot bear to think that I’m the meaning of perection when my life is so pythatic that I lie to my self about needing someone beside me as my life was torn apart.
That I can take care of my self without needing anyone..
The pride it self kills me when it forms to me as a shade.. not visible to the naked eye.
And just like that.. witjout even someone to notice my own suffering of unseen loneliness that drives me to the edge of insanity..
I feel as if my heart stops beating
I feel like a lifeless body
As if my own soul had come to an end
An end with no prince charming to save me from the beast who wants to suck the life out of me..
Even if in the end, all that ruthless beast was just me.

nothing but empty

I can only feel the emptiness inside of me..
I can only taste the sour, better taste of imperfection..
How can anything be compared to a feeling so strong that everything else in it’s companion fades away..
A feeling so deep, that every other sense of grief is not such a worthy to it’s penetration in it’s presence.
It’s both deep and shallow..
Both fatal and weak..
Both secure and insecure..
It’s just simple as a like and unlike at the same time..
It’s just plain madness..
Fullfilled in agony..
To think that you’re the meaning of perfection..
While you die from within from the emptiness that you had droven your self into..
Just nothing but PLAIN EmpTY..