what the HECK !!.. love is TORTURE any way ..

i jst don't know anymore
what am i?
am i the kind heart person
or have i developed into something more predator?
life make u change..
the changes that comes to be in u are because of the influences that others had made on u
we influence each other in a way we could never think about
and may be that's what i became
i became something more of like a teacher
i stopped caring about my relationships
just lost the interest one day
cause i found that
love is torture
it's jst not worth the suffering
and now..
i only have interest when it comes to fixin' other ppl's lives
may be i became something UNDEFINABLE
but what i care about for now
is to have my magic touch back..
on other ppl' lives
i can spare them the severe pain of missing up their lives.. their love.. and their personalities
jst being lost searching for the truth of themselves
because that's what i have became
i'm always in a way searching for the unfulfillable truth
about what i was
and what i can be

so jst for now
i'll stop lookin' for the one who makes sense of who i am
and jst be spontaneously magical and influence every lost soul i found in my way of achieving self confident and loving life

what the HECK !! love is TORTURE anyway..